the younger years

I am unhappy with my life situation right now. I am struggling to figure out how to change this so instead of bitching today I decided to give it some deep thought. 

I had narrow down a list of what might be causing my unhappiness:

• My weed habit
• Consuming alcohol
• Complicated relationship 
• Poor choice is friends
• New city
• Depression
• Not reading enough books
• I need to stop being so selfish and greedy and appreciate the blessings in my life (I really hope not, but it is possible).

My list above are all variable in the equation of my life, some may seem trivial to most but they are important to me. Some may need explaining so ask away! With this list of variables, I will simply alter one at a time while holding the rest constant, thus finding the cause of my unhappiness (hopefully).

It is science. I love the logic of it.

So starting from the top I will work my way down. Today marks the day I give up weed for three months. I know i can give it up. I never form too much attachment to anything. But it will be the longest I have gone without smoking in 5 year.

SHORT STORY TIME!!!

My older brother started dealing Marijuana at age 16, I was only 14. As many 14-year-olds have experienced, it is a period of time where you go through a lot of change. I started high school, got my first period and broke my ankle all in that year. So naturally i became a pot head. I smoked a bowl of of happiness everyday with my brother. I saw no harm in it. And I still don’t. But it is the only habit on my list that i have never thought to change. The End.

So here it goes. My experiment begins. Wish me luck!